i did it deliberately

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Loosely connected to my short story 'There are Easier Ways to Kill Yourself' which appeared in The Edinburgh Review. It mentions Porty beach, which features on the cover art.


I won't be home for Christmas
I won't be home at all
I drove my car into the sea at Portobello
And worst of all, I did it deliberately

I won't be around this summer
I won't be around at all
I drank myself into a hospital drama
And worst of all, I did it deliberately

I did it deliberately
I did it so we could be free from the lies
We tell to ourselves
Free to despise
The truth in ourselves

I won't be back for the funeral
I won't be back at all
I buried my heart in a box in the ocean
And worst of all, I did it deliberately


from i did it deliberately, released June 2, 2014
written and performed by Doug Johnstone



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